Miraculous

This morning I had a moment to write and for the first time in a very long time...I didn't feel like writing.
It was a little disturbing. Lately, it seems as if I write by feelings and by faith. I abandoned the post I was writing. I said a prayer in the car and I realized that my entire life has been lived by "feelings"...

I have always been one to be led by my emotions. My emotions have often defied all reason..and my emotions have led me into some very dark places.

My emotions have often led me into situations in which I felt "trapped." My emotions have led me into some very unstable relationships.

Today, I choose to write by faith..not by feeling.

I have several things that I would like to write about...Today I want to detail something that happened ten years ago. Patiently read, the bottom line is quite miraculous.

I guess it is no secret that I have had numerous supernatural experiences...I've seen miraculous things that God has done, and I have seen and experienced firsthand, the unseen realm of darkness that aims to destroy lives...the darkness that aims to tear apart...but often leads us onto paths that "feel right."

Ten years ago I recently gave birth to a baby boy. I was engaged to a man and we had our own little apartment in Baton Rouge....

There were some things going on in our apartment. My fiance was not a Christian and began to do some very very dark things. I'm not going to detail this time of my life. It's not my story to tell. I knew I should've left, but for a while I felt "trapped."

One day my fiance found me crying in a room by myself. Crying. I spent so many of those days in tears....realizing that life and beauty were waiting...but it seemed that, back then, good things were hidden from me.

It seemed that the good things of life weren't for me....

So I spent so much time crying.

I wanted that "rightness" to my life...but I wanted our life to be "right" as a family. I wanted to get married. I wanted us to serve Jesus...and have the promises of God.

Instead, there was a immense darkness.
I was in a very sinful situation.

In addition, there was a physical, tangible supernatural dark presence that dwelled among us.
I would so love to outline what I saw and experienced, but I wonder how many people would think I was crazy.

I suppose it doesn't matter what people think. I only hope that, by now, anyone who reads my blogs, will know that I hate lies, ABHOR LIES!, with a passion.

I have seen how lies destroy. I have seen how lies kill goodness in others. I see how lies affected my own life, and I have committed myself against them.

There were moving shadows in my apartment. Even my aunt can attest to this. There were things that moved. There were demonic forces.

I cringe remembering those days.

I begged my fiance to turn his life around. I begged and pleaded with tears and spoke of how I wanted that "rightness" for my life. I needed Jesus then...but I felt so trapped. I cried to Him and reached out to Him...but I didn't realize, at the time, that I could leave the situation.

I wanted things to work...for the sake of my son...I thought we would be married. I thought things could be "right."

But we can never change anyone. Only God can.

I digress,

One night we were all three drifting off to sleep. My baby was nestled in the middle of the bed.
Suddenly, I "knew" that I had to move him. Something told me, "move him, NOW!" I felt a sense of urgency and I moved my baby to the other side of the bed.
As soon as I moved him, my fiance's hand came crashing down, full force where my baby's head was positioned only seconds before. I don't know if my fiance was asleep and inadvertantly swung his arm....or if it was something done on purpose...All I know is that
Jesus saved my newborn's life that night. I don't know what impact a swinging fist would have on a new born's fragile skull, but I truly believe that Jesus saved my baby that night.
He gave me a warning. A "knowing"....

When we seek Him, He will answer us..He will show us things. He is still the God of miracles. He is still the God of Love.
Thank you, Jesus for saving my boy that night...

Yesterday, I was at the park with my boys, my niece, nephew, and sister in law, Melonie.
I was speaking with Melonie and I learned some of her story. I have known Mel for years and I never knew her story...
She told me things that amazed me! She told me things that God had shown her...she told me of her own "knowing".....I was astounded! God doesn't limit himself to revealing Himself to certain people. He is there for each of us. All we have to do is seek.

Mel shared with me a very interesting story about her sister. Mel said that one day she was reading a book and suddenly she "knew" that she had to pray for her sister. She spoke of the sense of urgency. She "knew" that it could mean life or death.

Mel then told how she tried calling her sis and couldn't get an answer. She called her mom, instead.

When Mel's mom answered the phone, she was in tears. Mel's sister had gotten in an accident with an 18 wheeler. Mel's mom relayed how she should have been dead, but was alive as if by a miracle!

A few days ago, I felt a need to pray..I'm not sure who I was praying for, but I felt as if something bad was going to happen.

That night, my cousin Coty got into an accident. He and a friend had to be cut out of the truck Coty was driving. They did not have a seat belt.
They are miraculously both doing much better than expected. By all reason, they should be dead...But Jesus heard my prayers...they are alive!
Thank you, Jesus!
You are amazing....
I know that God has a plan and a purpose for Mels sister...for my cousin Coty..and for Coty's friend...Thier life was spared for a reason.

Bullies

This week I felt as if Jesus wanted me to reach out to a girl who was bullied in high school.
I'm not going to mention her name...
I've always like the girl, but I remember in grade school and high school the kids always relentlessly picked on her.

As a Christian, I should have taken a stand for this young lady. But I didn't. Why? I guess it was easier not to.

Why are kids so seemingly cruel? Is it because they have no example?
It seemed like so many people were judged at our high school if they didn't have the "right" brand of jeans.
I wonder how the bullying affected this young lady's life?
Don't we know that with every cruel word or action, we plant darkness in the hearts of someone else..that darkness could grow so huge inside someone....but yet so many trod on...not seeming to care...unaware of the destruction that they leave behind...

Dear girl, if you are reading this...it's for a reason. Jesus wanted me to reach out to you in love. Because you aren't defined by what negative things others may have said to you. I'm not just talking out of my mouth... He showed me.
You are special. You were created in His image. Even the very hairs on your head are numbered.
He can heal so much in your life if you will ask Him and let Him.
I love you and I'm sorry I didn't stand up for you.
With the Love of Christ,

Rachelle

PARENTS: It's time to take a stand! Live what you believe! Set the example of kindness!
Please pass this on via facebook via..anything...It's time to stop the darkness in its tracks by spreading His Love

I challenge any and everyone who reads this to reach out to someone you have bullied...OR someone who was "unpopular" and got teased in school.
TELL THEM YOU ARE SORRY!
WALK THE NARROW PATH!
TELL THEM THEY ARE WORTH SOMETHING!
TELL THEM THEY ARE LOVED!

I'm sorry to anyone I have ever bullied....

Adultery, why do people do it?

Adultery, I can understand how some could be sucked into this vortex of doom. Read on....

First of all, put down your stones.

I want this blog to be a site of Truth...I want the Light to shine here...sometimes we have to talk about the hard, cold facts of life...the things that matter.....If you are coming to my blog as a means to obtain juicy gossip or to dissect and tear apart, then you will one day have to answer for your behaviour.

I don't want to understand adultery.
I know that during the course of my life, I have gone through cell phone records, computer history, etc. etc,
Anyone who has ever suspected a loved one or spouse of cheating, completely understands.
It hurts.
It hurts to the core. It hurts how the word "love" can be tossed around so carelessly.
It hurts to find someone else's number on the phone of someone who is supposed to be committed to you. It hurts to learn of "secrets." It just plain hurts.

So why? Why? Why do men and women cheat? Is it selfishness? Do some people completely have a disregard for others that they are willing to sacrifice their families welfare for a fling or a one night stand? Has the idea of self control been lost in our selfish society?

Has anyone heard about the website, Ashley Madison dot com? A place where married couples go to find that "special" someone? I cringe at the concept..

How many married people that dabble on dating sites or dabble with "friends" of the opposite sex consider themselves Christian? I am sickened...But can I cast my stones?

I don't. I simply want to shout from the rooftops, ADULTERY IS WRONG!

I have talked to many people about adultery. I have asked, why? I know married people and have heard stories about people who think an occassional delve into this realm "isn't going to hurt anyone.. I have actually heard someone say this. "Adultery isn't going to hurt anyone."

Do people with this false idea really believe that? Are they so lost that they have convinced themselves that they aren't hurting anyone? Families are torn apart because of adultery. America alone is falling apart before my very eyes! Children grow up without parents, often without love, and what is the result? Crime skyrockets, children are abused...so many dark things that grow out of "it isn't going to hurt anyone" adultery.

But can I cast my stones?

I was once in a situation. All trust was gone. I knew that I was being cheated on...I hadn't caught a certain someone in the actual act...but after enough lies about phone calls, and after actually talking to one of the women involved, I pretty much knew.
I didn't want to believe what was actually happening. So many lies. Adulters must be liars, also.
The two go hand in hand.

After I while, I began to notice other men. I began to crave that feeling of being "loved." I developed a close friendship with someone, but I realized that I was heading down the path of adultery myself. The friendship felt right. I never delved into the realm of adultery, Jesus stopped me..but I can see how some can be sucked into its vortex.

I can see how when someone is cheated on, they will reach out in part lonlieness and part revenge...

But it destroys! It kills families!
It is one of the most selfish acts that kills so much. So if you are dabbling on dangerous ground, stop!

(Hebrews 13:4) 4 Let marriage be held in honor among all, and let the bed be undefiled: but God will judge the sexually immoral and adulterers.

"You have heard that it was said, 'Do not commit adultery.' But I tell you that anyone who looks at a woman lustfully has already committed adultery with her in his heart. If your right eye causes you to sin, gouge it out and throw it away. It is better for you to lose one part of your body than for your whole body to be thrown into hell. And if your right hand causes you to sin, cut it off and throw it away. It is better for you to lose one part of your body than for your whole body to go into hell."

If you struggle with the desire to commit adultery, Trust Him, He can help you.

Things don't have to be lost..nothing has to be lost.

Get Out!!!

We are not called to understand darkness, dark situations, or walk hand in hand with people that pull us into dark paths..

I once was a well meaning person. In my lonliness, I reached out to people that often walked on very very dark paths. I thought I could "change" these people. I realized that God loved them and thought that my goodness could somehow "reedem" them.

But it didn't happen. Instead, I walked in places I should have never gone. The darkness only grew....

There were times when I looked to understand the "dark" behavior... But I am not called to understand dark deeds...I am called to live in light.
So are you.

If you are in a situation, where you are being dragged into darkness....Run! Run! for the Hills.. Do Not let someone else cost you your very soul.

Yes, you have a soul! I have seen so many things! Jesus is Real!!! Hell is Real!!!
Read through my blog. I've had sooo many experiences!

Go to a safe place..and pray...seek Him..sometimes it is hard to get out a situation...trust me, I know...but He will help you...that is why He called life, the narrow path.

The light only grows when we spread it....lives will never change, if people continue walking dark paths.

When we dissect too much, we bleed from the inside

For the past few days, I have been pondering on the "vastness" of things.
There are so many mysteries. So many doors that remain unopened.
The entire universe, creation, life,
God holds the key to so many unanswered questions.

I was curious to know about people who have had some of the same experiences as me. So I did a little research. I was amazed to find that many people have had similar experiences. But it seemed as if there were truths that I could relate to...and some that I could not.

It seemed as if I became lost in it all. I was actually sad for quite a while today. Realizing that there were so many things that I couldn't comprehend... I was actually beginning to get a headache.

Sometimes when we dissect too much, we tend to bleed from the inside.

I was near tears.......I went outside...still pondering all of these ideas and suddenly I felt the wind upon my face...I could see the sunshine ...I could see the wind blowing through the trees.

And I realized...I don't think I want to understand life's huge mysteries. I want to partake of it's
simplicity. Thanking Him for the smallest things...often opens doors of peace within me...
the sound of my boys laughter, the air that fills my lungs, the warmth of the sunshine...

In delighting in the small things....in thanking Him for the things have, I have peace. My answers will come as I seek...right now I delight in life's simplicity.

Meaning

If I knew all of life's mysteries
If I could tell of my fate
Would I seek Him for answers?
And patiently wait?

If I knew the answers,
the wheres? and the whys?
Would I presume to know everything
and reach out for the lies?

If I looked for my answers in the stars up above
Would I forget that my purpose is to reach out in love?

There are so many questions, so much concealed
But When I turn to Him, truth for me, is revealed...

So humbly bend your dear head,
find your answers in prayer
and ask Him to join you.
He'll meet you there.

His Love is Immense
So pure and so Fair
He has shown me a Light
No pain can live there..

So take Him your sorrows
Your questions, Your fear
And the Light of that Love
Will draw you so near

The Holy Spirit is the name
of all that is right
He will perfect your vision
Make clear your sight
Soon the chaos that enfolds your heart
will emerge into colors,
Your life's work of art..

You are so beautiful
You are a seed
So tiny and small
Filled with such need

But if you let Him give you
The Light of His Love
All dark, will turn light
In grace from above.

Cool, I just made this up...He gave it to me...Interesting.

Identical Dreams

I used to have a recurring dream. I always thought it was strange.
My mom used to have a red suburban. In the dream I was sitting in the back of her red suburban..and my mom was driving...
I looked up and suddenly my mom was gone. She was no longer at the wheel. I had to climb to the front of the suburban and drive. This dream always took place on the curve just past my grandmother's house.

This is going to sound strange to some people. I guess it is just one of those strange things. I don't take stock in dreams unless I know the source.

One day when I was much younger..I began to tell my sister about this dream...before I could finish it..she finished it for me. She had the exact same dream. Even the location of the dream was the same...it took place on the curve in front of my grandmother's house.

I haven't thought about this in years...just thought it was very very very strange.

Perhaps this is one of life's mysteries. Perhaps it is God's way of telling me that there is so much more than what we see....so much more than we can ever begin to comprehend...

There are no coincidences. There is order. There is a plan.