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Monday, December 31, 2012

An apology

hello friends,

to be honest, I'm tired and I don't feel like writing.
But I have much to write anyway.

Yesterday, I was humbled. Let me explain..

I know that, on my blog, I have posted about the numerous ways in which the enemy has literally tried to destroy me. Folks, I have seen and experienced some strange and horrific things in a very supernatural realm. But, through all of these things, I have experienced the Power of Jesus, as my Deliverer.

I recently had a very harsh experience that led me to seek the gift of discernment.
One of the first things that Christ showed upon giving me the gift, was how money is used as a tool of manipulation in many churches and how He is being sold for profit from behind pulpits.


He didn't stop there. He began showing me things that were wrong in our churches..I'll elaborate more on this later, but first, I want to repent for having the wrong spirit in things that I may have said and done..

I'll explain..
Through all of this revelation, I began to do some internet searching.
As Jesus spoke to me about false prophets and led to me to read parts of the Bible that warns of how MANY will be deceived in the last days..

One thing I have that there is a difference between pointing out a false teaching (in a spirit of love) and flat out heresy hunting..

anyhow, I am guilty because

I would often find myself on the internet doing a little personal "heresy hunting" of my own. is what I have learned through all of this..

1. There are many websites that have amazing and good may or may not be written in the right spirit..
You see, anything that is written to try to tear someone apart, rather than help the Body is probably really only going to cause division.

2. I found and even posted a lot of quotes from these sites..While the quotes may or may not be true..I have to ask..was anything taken out of context? Don't get me wrong..There are a LOT of teachings that I am finding that truly take away the Power of the Cross and put the focus on self..However, the last thing I want to do is wrongly judge or wrongly accuse anyone. It's good to question things, as the Bereans, but it is not good to point out wrongs just for the sake of doing so.

Truthfully, finding these sites and visiting them was causing some depression in my life, and causing me to have a critical spirit.
I realize that perhaps...while I wasn't judging the world..there were times..when I may have judged my own Christian brothers and sisters a little harshly. I have to realize that no matter what path we are on..and whether we are Protestant, Catholic, Mormon, Luther, Pentecostal..(or insert one of the other 37,000 Christian denominations here) Anyhow, we are all on the same path to truth..and only way is the way of the Cross..the way of love..and if we aren't showing that to one another..then we are following man and self and not the Holy Spirit.

Guys, the truth is that I don't trust many people anymore. I guess that came with experience.
If you read through the pages of my blog, you will find countless instances of how the enemy has used things that were spoken at a church to try to gnaw at my insides.

The other day I read an interesting article about how, as Christians, we eat our own.. meaning..we are so unforgiving of one another. We judge one another.

Yesterday, I sat thinking of all of the denominations.
I read that there are over 37,000 Christian denominations and most have separated because they disagree on a few key points.
Guys, do we really think God is going to have this kind of separation in Heaven?

Did you know that a denomination is essentially a division? a faction? the kind that Jesus warns about in the Bible..
But does that mean the Jesus wants us all to be "nondenominationals?
I think it means that He is just tired of the fact that we can't get along..all the while using HIs name..
Lately, I have been following a man by the name of Doug Perry.
Yes, there are people who say hateful things about him too..
but one thing that I am learing..
Is that if you have anything important to say..then you will be attacked..
viciously and relentlessly torn down and dragged through  the mud.. my effort to expose false teachings..I have to ask..have I been guilty of attacking anyone?
If so, then I sincerely apologize..because if I have..then it was done in a wrong spirit..and I, like Christ, should want to see everyone make it across the finish line..

Anyhow...One reason I like Doug Perry is because his main goal is get people of all denominations to have church together in the park. The other day I was watching one of his videos, and he pointed out that..if this were to happen..if people of various denominations met to worship the same Jesus that we all claim to know, would we be easily offended because someone else might worship a little differently. He said ..most people would probably focus on the minute differences ( like wine or grape juice? )  rather than focus on the beautiful fact that we are all in the park together..

Why can't people just celebrate Him together?
Doesn't the Bible even say that there is One Body of Believer..and that the Body is those that are being led by the Holy Spirit..
Isn't it funny how many religions of today will take a verse from the Bible, and through all of their interpretations, create something that doesn't even sound like the original verse? Have we essentially put our trust in man and man made systems rather  than in Christ Himself? Is that idolotry? Did Jesus ever tell anyone in His Word to build churches or did He send His disciples into the world?
Is what we have now what the enemy wanted?
To create 37,000 different religions where no one speaks to one another and we all bash one another?
Look at the fruit of what we have done..
Is this world the fruit of 37,000 differnet man made factions..? or is it the fruit of being led into love by a Christ who calls us to self sacrifice?

I think you all get the point.. Lots more later..right now, I just realized areas where I was wrong..but I am at a place..where I am ready to get it right..

Christ, I place my life in your hands and I pray that you lead me into your perfect way. Help me to push self aside more, so that You have more room to grow in me...


  1. I am glad your eyes opened........may the Holy Spirit continue to guide you as you seek His truth.......but remember to trust Him and if your spirit man isnt at peace when you hear a teaching then I say check it against God's word. His word never changes...............

  2. I like this blog a lot. I wish more people would examine their motives above their actions. We are so quick to look at the outward appearance rather than to consider the heart. God looks at our heats.
    Jesus says, "It is not what goes into the mouth that is unclean, but what comes out of it." Which should be understood with something else he said, "Out of the overflow of the heart, the mouth speaks." What Jesus is telling us, is that righteousness is not a matter of our actions, but our heart.
    The question is, "Does this glorify God or exalt self? Am I acting to make Christ known or simple to build my reputation?" (Colossians 3:17)

    "Well, dear friends, you know that some men can do to the glory of God what to other men would be sin. And notwithstanding what brother Pentecost has said, I intend to smoke a good cigar to the glory of God before I go to bed to-night.
    "If anybody can show me in the Bible the command, 'Thou shalt not smoke,' I am ready to keep it; but I haven't found it yet. I find ten commandments, and it's as much as I can do to keep them; and I've no desire to make them into eleven or twelve.
    "The fact is, I have been speaking to you about real sins, not about listening to mere quibbles and scruples. At the same time, I know that what a man believes to be sin becomes a sin to him, and he must give it up. 'Whatsoever is not of faith is sin' [Rom. 14:23], and that is the real point of what my brother Pentecost has been saying.
    "Why, a man may think it a sin to have his boots blacked. Well, then, let him give it up, and have them whitewashed. I wish to say that I'm not ashamed of anything whatever that I do, and I don't feel that smoking makes me ashamed, and therefore I mean to smoke to the glory of God."