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Thursday, April 21, 2011

Pan Handlers and Anger Issues

Today I was driving to work and I saw a homeless man on the side of the road. He looked like he had seen hard times. Sometimes, we can just look at a person and tell that life for them, hasn't been easy.

Instead, we judge. We make assumptions.

We say, "get a job."

Not all of us have that attitude. But most people I've encountered do.

I've seen the shows about pan-handling. People stand on street corners, begging for money or spare change and make up to $30,000 a year.

But today as I saw this homeless man. I didn't see a pan handler. I saw a vulnerable person. Down on his luck. I saw someone who had been pushed around. I saw a man who needed Jesus.

I saw a human soul.

I was digging around for to see if I had a few dollars in cash and I noticed a police officer. I couldn't see what he was doing, but it looked as if he were frisking the man.

Suddenly, I felt hurt. I felt like the police officer should have just let the man alone.
I felt like the man was targeted because he was lowly.

Because he was down on his luck.

I saw a lack of compassion in the officer. But then again, I can't imagine what kind of horrors police officers must witess. But still, a seeminly lack of compassion.

A coldness.

A hardness.

Earlier that day, I was thrust in the middle of an angry situation. I was thrust in the midst of someone else's frustration and impatience.

I had been in a great mood.

High on life. Living in the fulness of God's purpose, when lo and behold, the hammer of anger came crashing down, smashing my joy into little tid bits.

I saw, at that moment, how anger plants thorns in the hearts of people. How it hurts us in deep ways. It is so easy to act out of anger and impatience.

But as Christians, we have a responsibility.

Anger drives thorns into the hearts of people. Jesus is the one who wore the thorns so we wouldn't have to nail them into the people that we meet.

What if our anger kept someone from finding the answers to life greatest questions? What if our anger kept someone from wanting to know about the Greatest Story Ever Told?

Anger does not lift up. It tears down. It discourages. It's the easy route.

It's the wide path.

Let it Go.

I see a Hope in this life. I see lives that need healing touches and anger will tear down.

Stop. Count to ten. Say a prayer. But please think before you act. Anger destroys. It was placed here by the enemy and it sows seeds of hatred. Lives are destroyed through anger.

Today in my sadness, I thought about how hard it is to love. How it opens us to disappoints.

Because we care. We see a need.

We have a concern for lives. We see bitterness and hatred all around. Consuming people.

We see this Hope. And we want people to have it. To let them know that life doesn't have to be defined by sadness and despair.

But it is through that concern, that I can see how Jesus must feel. How sad he must be. Because He loves greater than I could ever even imagine. How must He feel when we choose to kick people in the face with anger. When we drive thorns into hearts with our words and our selfish actions.

But I have struggled with this foul emotion. But I am learning that the more I know Jesus, the more patience mutes the loud screams of anger. Patience. Patience. Patience.

Today my prayer is for all those that struggle with anger. That we may see the seeds of discord that you plant. How these seeds reap despair. That we can see that healing cannot be accomplished when we plant diseases through our words.

You have heard that it was said to the people long ago, "Do not murder, and anyone who murders will be subject to judgment." But I tell you that anyone who is angry with his brother will be subject to judgment ... first go and be reconciled to your brother; then come and offer your gift (Matthew 5:21-24).


  1. Gosh rachelle you are just hitting it home with me today. I keep reading and God keeps minstering to me through your blogs. I too deal with anger everyday..I work in an environment that is full of sin. I'm in a buisness where i deal with men all day. all my co-workers all my customers are men. And they have dirty mouths and unclean hearts. I am spoken to disrespectfully and I am teased about my faith. But they continually claim "Oh Its just a joke....."but words hurt. And all they know is darkness and they can't see the truth of what their words do to me. There are days when I go home in tears and repentance because I lost control, lost my temper, lashed out and spit the thorn filled words right back at them. I began praying for God to move me to another job but he kept telling me no. So I would just rest in Him and continue on. Well on Friday April 15th I had a horrible day. But I was attending a womens conference called inspire that night so I was determined to get before God and find out His purpose for me being in this job. I got on my knees unloaded my burden and poured my heart out before God and just asked WHY WHY WHY!!! And God answered. He told me " I have placed you here for My purpose! Yes you are the only light in this dark place because that is My will. I need you to show these men how I have changed you and transformed you for My will. But you are letting the devil have power over you. I have already won the victory so stand in it. Stay close to me. Utter my name every moment of the day and stay in my presence. Give me your pain and frustrations and I will sustain you. I am your God and this is My will for you."
    Needless to say after God spoke to me I appreciated my job more than before. God wanted me to be a witness to these pour lost souls. He trusted me enough to place me here to do His will and fulfill it (with His help of course). I just had to stop letting the devil have power over me. Since then I pray and worship on my way to work, God fills me with His peace and I continually dwell on Him in my thoughts all day. I have scripture taped all over my walls by my desk and I listen to KLOVE all day. I have become dependant on God for..... I don't feel right if I miss studying His word or meeting Him in prayer. I love Him so. And He has changed me so drastically. Im so grateful He didn't leave me in my sin because I don't think I would be alive today.
    Thank you
    You are such a blessing.

  2. cool..girl I will have to tell you some's amazing how so many Christians go thru the same things at the same time. How He can use us to lift each other up and reaffirm what He is telling us.
    I know you will be a Light.....